Therapised

I’m going to struggle with day treatment; an opinion held by both my therapist and I. I haven’t yet arranged the treatment but it’s something I can’t, and won’t avoid no matter how hard it is. I need intellectual stimulation, lots of it; hanging around in a supervised unit for entire days at a time, …

to treat or not to hospital treat? that is the eating disorder…

I Had a look at the eating disorder day case centre: 3 anorexic 16 year old girls, sitting calmly in a small, forcibly comfortable room, one knitting, waiting to not eat. I am a sore thumb. A sore, throbbing thumb 20 years senior than the fingers. It is difficult to feel the place has any …

Fibbing with style… the way to success

C is an inveterate fibber, conducted with such admiral aplomb and conviction it’s hard not to admire it. With factual matters she lives by the rule: say/do it with confidence and people will believe anything i.e. bullshit baffles brains. She is so good at rolling out plausible answers for things she has no business knowing …

Unnerving behaviour 2

Yesterday saw the second round of the de-nerving of front-righty, the treatment that had caused a large amount of pain in the aim of stifling the tooth with attitude.  Arriving early as it was cold and rainy outside, I settled into the established waiting room, a place considerably more established than last week’s temporary version. …

Bulimia is a powerful mistress

he kitchen is a mess, when it came to removing the end caps on the pipe yesterday afternoon, the smug grin, still present even after the dentist, took a swift slap to the face: nether end piece would budge, the kitchen remained a mess and quite dry; like they say ‘beware what you wish for’, …

the anti-walking society

I have a suspicion, backed up by decades of observational evidence that there exists in Britain and probably far beyond, a number of secret societies, which once membership has been attained, for one must be invited to join, one is entitled to act like a subversive malcontent when it comes to moving in public spaces.  …

Too tired to work out.. The return of the ED.

I'm too tired to train today, but As per routine I'm due in the gym in less than an hour, after dropping the kids at nursery... I'm tired because I'm not eating well again, purging far too regularly and swapping carbs for rice cakes.. the start of a slippy slope to illness... It's good that …